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Congrats everyone!
I realized that I don't have any emotions, which makes it hard for me to get attached to people. It sucks, but from a girl's point of view, I guess it's good because I don't fall madly in love with people (or develop silly crushes). And I'm an "out of sight, out of mind" type of person and need to spend time to actually love the person. This makes me seem very robotic and heartless and I admit I am. It's hard for me to sympathize with people when they share problems and I can't. Why am I up at 6:46 am anyway? I screwed up my sleep cycle. I never sleep anymore haha. Insomnia? When I do fall asleep, I'm going to wake up at 12:00pm probably haha. noooo~ I suck.
edit: or should i just stay up? haha I'm pulling more all nighters now than I did during the semester
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| It's too hard to do ourselves. I'm glad God's here to help.
Anyone else think kissing in the rain seems awfully romantic?
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| I think it sucks how so many girls are worried about their appearance. I can admit before anyone that I am one of the most insecure people I know (But I feel like everyone thinks that of themselves). You always have to worry about what people honestly think of you. And you always feel like the ugliest one in the group (no matter how true or false it is). You compare yourself to your friends and get jealous that they look better than you will ever look. You say you exercise to be healthy, when in reality, you just want to lose weight so that people don't think you're fat. That's the worst feeling ever. When a guy says "She's fat" about someone who is obviously skinnier than you. That makes you feel so good, right? I think we tend to say that sort of stuff without ever thinking of how painful it is to the person. I just want to be courageous enough to say "Please stop" instead of letting it slide. It's not right. Please don't tell me someone is ugly or fat. It makes me insecure. I totally sympathize with all of girlkind (yeah I made that word up), especially those who are easily hurt by words. We can't help it! We're just made that way. I was talking to this guy I know about girls at the gym, and he said that the girls only go because they want to look good and guys go because they "need" to physically or else they can't function. That just made me really sad. I don't want my actions to be determined by what people think of me. I want to be my own person.
And I feel even more trapped when guys say it's not attractive when girls are insecure. I want to say "Well, if I could help it, I don't want to be insecure." It seems to imply that we've chosen to be insecure. This makes me honestly really sad, that some people don't understand why people are insecure.
Just goes to show how wretched we are. And only God can truly change your innermost thoughts and insecurities. This is something that I think most people struggle with. Trying to change ourselves when obviously it won't work.
P.S. I'm not saying guys can't be insecure. I just feel the vast majority of girls are like this. And I'm not a guy so I can't speak for them.
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